I’m Here

I’m here. I need you to know.

I replay moments that we shared and ones I’ve dreamed

For you I’m just a scent and just a song away

For me you’re a whisper, a smile, a big step forward when I’m afraid and tired.

I see you being brave.
In that moment you breathe in
In that moment you breathe out
In that moment your tears flow freely
In that moment you choose joy
I am here.

For you I live in an entire kaleidoscope of infinite stories that you read and tell and remember how they were told to you while I held you in my arms.
There’s nothing like that warm, safe dream of together.

I wish for it every second I’m still.
I beg for it back when I’m worn out.
When I don’t have anything left to hide all the stuff I keep underneath.

Those days do come
I’ll be there to help you hold that heavy feeling
You’ll find peace in a memory and laughter will soon follow.

I just wish you were here

I am ~ close your eyes
Do you see me?
Just on the other side of the thinnest wall where you can still feel my presence.
Still hear my laughter
Still feel your heart thumping when you see my eyes light up for you.

I really wish I could talk to you
Just once more

You can~I hear you
I bet you can hear me too

My love knows you through and through and treasures every bit.
You get to keep that for all eternity
And so do I.
Love exists in a realm surpassing life and death.

How do I find you?
How will I know you’re still here with me?

Did you know there is no end sweetheart~~
Only places far beyond our imagination
With lights as bright as the sun
No fear, no pain, no worry
Just joy. Just love.

You may feel we have separated
But we remain
Long after we must part
Love remains~~

It will wrap you up like a warm towel after a hot bath.
It will sing you to sleep.
It will wake you when the sky is so beautifully blue
that you simply must not miss it.
Maybe you will find a nickel
Catch a rainbow gracing gloom
Spot a dragonfly under the sparkling sun
See the most delicious bloom under a peculiar tree
See a bird soar high above this Wild world.
That is my love being sent straight to you

That is when you’ll know
You have found me
When you have opened your heart
Just enough to see the magic
That remains
That is me
I am always there

I was on top of the world from the day I knew we would be together
I am still ….
Right here.
A light to guide you through this world
In your heart
And right beside you too
Every step of the way.

Keep on being brave
It matters
The tough parts are little bridges that we must trust and
we must cross.
They don’t go on forever.
They just get us to the good stuff.

I hope you do the things you love today.
Go for a drive,
Walk through the garden
Bake a cake
Drink a big cup of coffee with just the right milk and sugar.
Make yourself smile cuz that’s the time I love the most. 🙂
I love you always, forever,
and still…

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What Will You Bring With You?

I met you at the golden gate
Where love and peace and heaven wait…
I asked you what you brought with you,
In a life review of how you grew.
You took my hand, and your eyes met mine,
And you started to explain..
Each step you took,
Each jump you made,
The places you went,
The homes you stayed,
All crafted and cradled in wonder and light,
The dreams in the day and the stars at night…
A single bloom,
The blasted gloom,
A brand new start,
A patchwork heart…
Your song to sleep,
A river deep,
To the mountain high,
And a well earned sigh..
These little things,
All packed up small,
Filled your soul,
From spring to fall..
As you’re called back home,
Where your path began,
A little boy,
To this fine young man…

Love From Mom

I’m here. I need you to know.

I see you my child.

~Precious soul I miss too big to explain.

I’m here. I need you to know.

~I replay moments that we shared, and ones I’ve dreamed.

For you I’m just a scent and just a song away.

~For me you’re a whisper, a smile, a big step forward when I’m afraid and tired.

Yes.  I see you being so brave.  I’m there.  

For you I live in stories that you read and remember how they were told to you while I held you in my arms.

~There’s nothing like that safe warm dream of together.

I wish for it every second I’m still.  

I beg for it back when I’m worn out.  

When I don’t have anything left to hide all that stuff I keep underneath.  

Those days will come.

I’ll be there to help you hold that heavy feeling so it won’t weigh you down.

Those days will go.

You’ll find peace in a memory and laughter will soon follow.

You’ll find peace knowing our souls are forever meant to be.  

I’m right here…

Just on the other side of the thinnest wall where you can still feel my presence.

Still hear my laugh.

Still feel your heart thumping when you see my eyes light up for you.

A momma’s love who knows you through and through and treasures every bit.

You didn’t lose that.

It was, and it is.

This love exists in a realm surpassing life and death.

Long after we must part

It will wrap you up, like a warm towel after a hot bath.

It will sing you to sleep.

It will wake you when the sky is so beautifully blue that you simply must not miss it.

It will guide you with the sparkling sun.

It will remind you with the most delicious bloom under a peculiar tree.

It will gather your fears and send them soaring with the birds high above this wild world.

Don’t worry my dear.  I am right here.

I was on top of the world from the day I knew we would be together

and I am still ….

Right here.

On top of the world.

Watching over you,

every step of the way.

Keep on being brave my lil one.

It matters.

The tough parts are little bridges

that we must trust and

we must cross.

They don’t go on forever.

They just get us to the good stuff.

I hope you do the things you love today.  

Will you go for a drive?

Will you walk through the garden?  

I know in some way you will help others, it’s what feeds your soul…

Make yourself smile cuz that’s the time I love the most. 🙂

Love you always, forever, and still,

~mom

A Girl Made of Moments

Her hair sweeps across one eye

with a pony ride and a kiss goodnight

her long legs run, on a tummy tickle

a Beana Bird and a Maddy Pickle

her heart is beating with a million “I love yous”

Brown sugar oatmeal

and new monster high shoes

her eyes hand you faith, trust,

purpose and hope

With all the times you said “sure”,

when your mom mind said “nope”.

Her ideas rush like Nymph Falls

Swirling, twirling and singing,

Won’t ever stop, this is just the beginning.

She’s still looking at me, now and then,

like a queen

But those days are numbered

like the countdown to pre-teens..

This girl is my heart, my soul, and my mirror

the moments we make will create who you see here.

 

i see her there

in my reflection

The moment passing

going no direction

just knowing I am changed

 

Moments…

Moments we don’t move forward,

Or back~

Moments we hoard like Halloween candy~

Moments we feel deeply, as they are etched into our skin like a tattoo~

Like a comic into smoothly pressed silly putty~

The slow motion rumblings as you are being peeled away from this perfect comic ~

Shaken by time ~

Pushing you from the delicately portioned ease into the next unknown~

We are going to be changed ~

Every future moment mixed with blended bits of yesterday’s ink.