Lane Change

As we sat in our trucks
and cars
So close to each other
But minds so far

Only thinking of what’s next
Rushing from one thing to another

A seagull floated above
Sorry for us

He was free
He was at ease

We were stressed and anxious
Annoyed and hurried

He was unaware of the time
Unaware of the congestion

We were squeezing in,
Cutting off,
Muttering profanity

He wished we could stop
get out of the lane
We had chosen
Step back
Breathe the air
Surrounding the chaos
We had sped to join

And see each other
For a moment
Not see a black car
A red truck

But the child inside each of us
Dreaming of being free
Just like him

How do we step out of our routine
To witness a better scenario
How do we change lanes
When we feel so stuck
In this “race” we hope to win

This race that ends where?
When we collapse in our beds?
When we scream at our loved ones?
When we cry out of fear,
Or worry?

What are we gaining
As we rush on
To get more
To be more
To do more

There is never more at the end of a race

There is an END

Before the end

Wouldn’t you like to just be?

Just sit down for a moment

Look around you

Smile

Breathe

See the birds as they float and soar

Smell the air as a new season emerges

Count your blessings

I feel we have all reached our limits, don’t you?

We must pause, reassess, and make sure we aren’t missing the point of being here in the first place.

I know you can’t believe you were born to push yourself to be anything you are not

I know you cannot believe that you meant to race through life, on little sleep, little nutrition, little joy

I know you don’t want to spend one more day in this “race” missing everything surrounding you

Ending in exhaustion and an empty heart

Your soul is aching to be free…

We may not be free to fly like the birds

But we truly are free to choose what we wish for ourselves

And move towards that.

Even if it’s just one little thing

I dare you to change one part of your life that causes you dread

Isn’t it funny to think we keep things in our lives that cause us dread?

I guarantee we each have one that we could get rid of

When I started to try to embrace my true self, to be a happier me, one of the first things I chose to do was to admit I hated to talk on the phone…ahhhh thats one less thing to face in this world that was bringing me stress.

As Ferris Bueller once said

“Life moves pretty fast…if you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it”

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“In your eyes I felt so completely good about myself ~ the familiar glow of a kind and gentle friend. I knew I was ok. That life was really really good.”

We are all one. It’s so very true. To see each other that way we take away all judgement as you could very well experience what another experiences. Make the choices they have made. Find yourself in a similar circumstance. Felt the way they have felt.

You may remove judgement all physical appearance, behaviour or circumstance and any and all hopes, dreams and desires ~BUT~also see each other with the kind of eyes that I see my son and my daughter with. Full of unconditional love. Admiration and respect. I accept their choices. I am excited to see how their own hopes and dreams play out in this beautiful story of life. The “Choose Your Own Adventure” at its finest.

Different perspectives create unique ideas that shape the path ahead for us all! Each person has a purpose and we must start seeing the value in every individual path. Especially the ones you cannot understand or have deeply engrained negative assumptions about.

We can no longer stick to what was decided in the past. We must allow the future to be written without copying everything we have already read. Use new pens. New paper. Or forget about paper and pens and write it with sticks in the sand. Or type it up for the world to see. Or maybe not write it or type it at all. Maybe I will not read about it. I will feel it.

I want to be able to do this. Imagine that everyone I meet is a very special person to me. Not just “be nice to everyone”. But see people and silently appreciate them. Cheer for them. Be curious about their journey and excited for the way they are affecting the world. Encouragement by letting unconditional love flow from your heart to theirs. Nothing needs to be said. Nothing needs to be done. Just feel it.

People you cross paths with will say
“In your eyes I felt so completely good about myself ~ the familiar glow of a kind and gentle friend. I knew I was ok. That life was really really good.”

Imagine if we had only genuine loving thoughts about the people we surround ourselves with and those we pass by. The action that’s needed will be genuinely inspired and will be in harmony with the highest good of all.

The most treasured people in your lives whether here or transitioned hold the key to this wish. When you think about those special connections you have, let all those good happy thoughts flood your mind. Then, let it be shared. Share that genuine care with every person you meet. Start with you!! Every animal. Every tree. We can change the vibration, the feel of this world. It can’t hurt to try. 🙂

To put it another way. I wish that each and every one of us feels “seen” today. Seen for the very best parts of us. Which parts are those you wonder? It’s all of your parts..the entire recipe. All of it.
Your every little ingredient is needed, valued, loved and respected. All of our parts make us one. We are all one. I see you completely. And I know you are amazing. ⭐️

A Momma Named Lynda Jean

For my momma on Mother’s Day. May 14th, 2017

Did you know that I can still see your gorgeous shiny hair as you took out your curlers?
You still have the best hair

Did you know that I’ll never forget the time I came home to you finishing the wall paper in my room? There you were surrounded by pink and blossoms and coated in sticky glue ~ I can still smell that glorious freshly papered room. I loved it so much. Thank you.

Did you know that I still love wiener pizza? That was and always will be a heck of a good idea.

Did you know that I appreciate each and every time you let me stay home with a tummy ache? I was a super sensitive lil gal and no other momma would have understood me as you did.

Did you know I am STILL super sensitive? And sometimes the only cure is coffee with mom.

Did you know I have no idea who Rita’s cousin’s uncle’s neighbour’s son is or what year he got married? I know you know. You know the names and dates and places of anything I could ever wish to know. Thank you for being my infinite source of facts and forgotten tidbits.

Did you know that I will never forget how much you did for all of us? From meals and baking to sewing and endless chores. To saving me from weird situations and smoothing things over when I thought they were unable to be repaired. From something you found or made for me “specially”. To the many moves and fresh starts. From homemade donuts after chicken catching. To making me believe that I “shouldn’t even worry about it” and nothing I feared was a big deal. Thank you.

Did you know that Maddy and Max find the same comfort with you?
Maddy even told me this week I “sure was lucky cuz I got to have Grandma as my mom.” You better believe it Beana. The luckiest.

Did you know that I can still hear GX94 playing our songs?? Jiving around the kitchen. Or were we waltzing? Was it a polka? Hmmm

Did you know that you may never beat my Zuma score and that’s ok. 😜🐸

Did you know that I may have looked 10 years older by now if it hadn’t been for Lynda “poppins” early morning pop ins after the babies were born! Thank you for the naps. The laundry. The meals. The advice. The shoulder to cry on.

Did you know I hope my kids feel the same way about me that I feel about you ~ if I can provide them love and laughter and wisdom and comfort and maybe bake some cookies now and then maybe I can pull it off. It’s not always easy but I am following in the most beautiful footsteps one could follow.
Thank you momma for being my momma.

Happy Mother’s Day!!!
The favourite.

I’m Here

I’m here. I need you to know.

I replay moments that we shared and ones I’ve dreamed

For you I’m just a scent and just a song away

For me you’re a whisper, a smile, a big step forward when I’m afraid and tired.

I see you being brave.
In that moment you breathe in
In that moment you breathe out
In that moment your tears flow freely
In that moment you choose joy
I am here.

For you I live in an entire kaleidoscope of infinite stories that you read and tell and remember how they were told to you while I held you in my arms.
There’s nothing like that warm, safe dream of together.

I wish for it every second I’m still.
I beg for it back when I’m worn out.
When I don’t have anything left to hide all the stuff I keep underneath.

Those days do come
I’ll be there to help you hold that heavy feeling
You’ll find peace in a memory and laughter will soon follow.

I just wish you were here

I am ~ close your eyes
Do you see me?
Just on the other side of the thinnest wall where you can still feel my presence.
Still hear my laughter
Still feel your heart thumping when you see my eyes light up for you.

I really wish I could talk to you
Just once more

You can~I hear you
I bet you can hear me too

My love knows you through and through and treasures every bit.
You get to keep that for all eternity
And so do I.
Love exists in a realm surpassing life and death.

How do I find you?
How will I know you’re still here with me?

Did you know there is no end sweetheart~~
Only places far beyond our imagination
With lights as bright as the sun
No fear, no pain, no worry
Just joy. Just love.

You may feel we have separated
But we remain
Long after we must part
Love remains~~

It will wrap you up like a warm towel after a hot bath.
It will sing you to sleep.
It will wake you when the sky is so beautifully blue
that you simply must not miss it.
Maybe you will find a nickel
Catch a rainbow gracing gloom
Spot a dragonfly under the sparkling sun
See the most delicious bloom under a peculiar tree
See a bird soar high above this Wild world.
That is my love being sent straight to you

That is when you’ll know
You have found me
When you have opened your heart
Just enough to see the magic
That remains
That is me
I am always there

I was on top of the world from the day I knew we would be together
I am still ….
Right here.
A light to guide you through this world
In your heart
And right beside you too
Every step of the way.

Keep on being brave
It matters
The tough parts are little bridges that we must trust and
we must cross.
They don’t go on forever.
They just get us to the good stuff.

I hope you do the things you love today.
Go for a drive,
Walk through the garden
Bake a cake
Drink a big cup of coffee with just the right milk and sugar.
Make yourself smile cuz that’s the time I love the most. 🙂
I love you always, forever,
and still…

The Bench

The bench that waits
Beside the creek
Where I listen
And tall trees speak

As I learn
To understand
Nature’s voice
Is calm and grand

Quiet, whispers the sun
The very best
Is yet to come

Will it be a bunny
An owl or a butterfly?
No! It is the smiles
Of a couple passing by!

Where I Stand

I am not where I stand
Though you see my feet
Stuck firmly
Upon this ground

My thoughts and feelings
Reach through endless realms
Dance through dreams
Mingle with Spirit
Manifest from the Heavens

Tune to a vibration
Follow a whim
Download in prayer
Inspiration in meditation
Divine access
Simply by being still

Allow the soul to explore
Beyond what we see
Beyond where we stand
Beyond this glimpse
Of limited reality

We are not where we stand

Having Known You

There is not another like you. Not even close.

 

There is not another just like you
I haven’t found one, not even close

Like my favourite apples
When there are none
I leave without a single one
Cuz I’d rather have none
Than one not quite right

I leave silly thoughts sitting alone on a long bench in my mind
No one will understand them
No one but you
So they sit there alone
Without you

Well, without you
I wander around …and I’m without you.
I’m without you.
Right now in this moment you aren’t with me.
But your beautiful face,
Your chuckling, bubbling laughter,
Your wit,
Your warmth and accepting spirit that created endless joy and tranquility,
Well those beautiful memories and cherished gifts have never left me.

Having known you~
Joy and tranquility
Are forever with me
I am without you,
But you are with me.

I Am A Little Leaf

I am a little leaf
I grow and flow and fall
I see you
Noticing me

If I were but a leaf
Falling sweetly to the ground
Would I not want someone to notice me
To smile with delight
At my small but sacred flight
The gentle beauty of it all

To let their heart and soul be kissed by the little dance
Performed just for them

Ahh yes I truly would

As they delight in my adventure
Perfectly timed to be part of theirs
I feel a wave of their own
Wishes for joy
Rushing through me like
Contagious laughter

Spreading to all who will choose
To allow it
~~~Ensuring all those wishes come true~~~

I am a little leaf
I grow and flow and fall
I see you
Noticing me

Look Within

When the outside hurts

Remind yourself  why you

Came here this time

You brought that bright shining light

Do you remember?

We do.

It still glows

It’s still as bright

It’s still yours to shine

~Look within~

 

You’ve made good use of

It’s gentle guidance

When you didn’t even realize

You were being held up

By your own two hands

 

I know it feels like nobody gets you

Nobody can really hear you

When you’re sure they did

You feel the sharp edge of doubt

And even laughter

You curse your innocence

But this is a very special part

Of who you are

 

What you are feeling

Is only meant to push you

A little bit

To remind you to

~Look within~

 

You know you set out on a mission

To bring love, joy, peace and safety

to heal all the ones

Who would cross your path

 

You listened with love

To the stories of their lives

You made sure they knew

No matter what

They were good

They were needed

They had certain joy in store,

Waiting just ahead

They were perfect just as they were

 

You must remember your own words

You are good

Your heart is kind and pure

You know how hard you try

You know you must never, ever

Look outside yourself

For approval or comfort,

When feeling lost, confused or scared

Your unique path is only to be understood by you

And if you embrace that unique path

Living from your heart

Living your truth

You will achieve what you set out to achieve

You will help heal the world

You will comfort those

Who feel as you do today

You will find it all

If you

~Look within~

 

Oh it is sweet

To feel the embrace

Of the golden universal light

The bold but delicate piece

You carry within

Must be released now

As you speak

As you write

As you encourage your children

Play with your pets

Care for a loved one

Share your abundance

And your barely enoughs

Tidy your home

Treasure your dreams

Sing along with the radio

Ignite the fire of joy

 

Can you see how quickly

That small piece you share

Becomes enough

Simply by shining it

In all you do

 

You are loved!

We are always here

Remembering for you

When you forget

~Look Within~

Sail On

My child

I hold you while you slumber

please rest more

so we can share a breath

as you quiet your mind

and your breathing slows

your tired dream syncs

safely with the angels

I cherish you

I embrace your fight

dissolving any battles

easing all the angst

you awaken

utterly refreshed

full only of harmony

a knowledge of oneness

divine light

pouring over

your transformed soul

following a new map

to bring your gentle heart

back to the top

to rule the mind

you are a light

you must sail on

my kind and gentle child

carry that light

wherever the waves carry you