We are the Sun

The curtain came down,

Before I could speak.

I on one side,

You on the other.

I waited, stunned at the sudden finality.

This must be part of the show.

This heavy velvet

suffocating with silence,

Would rise and I’d be able to say the lines I had planned to say,

And those I hadn’t,

As they flooded my mind with so much urgency.

Time was still passing,

As I held my breath.

The clock that had never worked,

Began to …reminding me to breathe.

The curtain anchored itself in,

locked “for now”.

I stood there alone.

The crowd that had been watching, had left,

Eager to escape the stifling stench of despair.

I was sure you would find a way

to come back to me.

You were the “star”.

“This” couldn’t go on without you.

Nobody else knows the lines.

Nobody else knows how scared I am to speak mine.

Nobody else remembers OUR memories.

~~~I was completely alone~~~

You were on the other side

of something I didn’t understand.

How could I still hear your voice,

Feel your presence,

But not see you?

Our scene was over….or paused,

I didn’t know which.

I don’t know how long I stayed there ~at that curtain~…

Time became irrelevant.

The only thing that existed,

Were the delicate cracks in my desperate heart.

I knew I would have to step back into my own light,

And create a new role for me to play.

I didn’t want to.

I wanted this one.

I wanted it all back.

I wasn’t ready to become anything without you.

Me without you..

No.

I hated it…

I cursed it..

I poured out my deepest, tar soaked depths,

And floated there as long as I could

Without sinking.

One night as I dreamed,

You came back to me.

You took my hand,

Pulled me from the dark,

Wrapped me in the curtain

I had thought was our “divide”.

It wasn’t.

It was now a magic cape,

Coloured with all of our memories.

Stitched through endless days of our shared laughter,

our shared sun.

You looked at me and whispered

“You are the star, I am the wish,

We are the sun.”

“You are the light, I am the warmth,

We are the sun.”

We have always been, and will always be one.

You had given me the gift I needed to keep on.

We are not divided and never were.

We are only united,

always forever…

To wish for a moment

with you,

I simply need to BE.

There are pieces of me,

Made from seconds,

and thoughts,

and creations,

Where we existed in one space

together…

visibly,

in the same wrinkle of time.

What we cannot see,

Now lies within our

very existence.

And this dreamy magic cape,

Shall remain with me..

Surrounding me in love,

Until that curtain rises,

Once again.

 

 

 

 

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The Embers

Love lives, as the fires sleep..

Within each of us

are the embers.

They ignite with love.

to light the way,

for our soul to journey

confidently.

There is the ember of wonder,

the ember of hope,

the ember of trust,

the ember of forgiveness,

the ember of gratitude,

the ember of creativity,

the ember of harmony~

Be open to receiving love.

It flutters in on the wings of

a butterfly,

It pours from the laughter of

children,

It circles you with a strangers

smile,

It finds you in a dream,

It catches you in unbelievable days,

and helps you believe~

Love creates light

Love dissolves fear,

Love lives as the fires sleep,

and will wake you…

again and again.

 

 

 

Thank you…

you are the fresh air
playing in the flowers
that rise wildly through a darkened earth

When I turn from the sun, shoulders slumped
I breathe you in
And find strength for one more step

That step leads me to butterflies, square dancing through an abundant garden

It pulls me through shadows left behind from a devoted storm

I stop in awe…

Every rainbow has met as one~ into a beam of endless colour

exactly where I once felt cold and alone…worried and scared

now only light…

only colour…

only new wishes for new days…

Sweet hope …

I watch my thoughts that have held me down, heavy with fear,

earn their wings,

and soar to the sun,

and as they leave me

I say …

thank you~