Lane Change

As we sat in our trucks
and cars
So close to each other
But minds so far

Only thinking of what’s next
Rushing from one thing to another

A seagull floated above
Sorry for us

He was free
He was at ease

We were stressed and anxious
Annoyed and hurried

He was unaware of the time
Unaware of the congestion

We were squeezing in,
Cutting off,
Muttering profanity

He wished we could stop
get out of the lane
We had chosen
Step back
Breathe the air
Surrounding the chaos
We had sped to join

And see each other
For a moment
Not see a black car
A red truck

But the child inside each of us
Dreaming of being free
Just like him

How do we step out of our routine
To witness a better scenario
How do we change lanes
When we feel so stuck
In this “race” we hope to win

This race that ends where?
When we collapse in our beds?
When we scream at our loved ones?
When we cry out of fear,
Or worry?

What are we gaining
As we rush on
To get more
To be more
To do more

There is never more at the end of a race

There is an END

Before the end

Wouldn’t you like to just be?

Just sit down for a moment

Look around you

Smile

Breathe

See the birds as they float and soar

Smell the air as a new season emerges

Count your blessings

I feel we have all reached our limits, don’t you?

We must pause, reassess, and make sure we aren’t missing the point of being here in the first place.

I know you can’t believe you were born to push yourself to be anything you are not

I know you cannot believe that you meant to race through life, on little sleep, little nutrition, little joy

I know you don’t want to spend one more day in this “race” missing everything surrounding you

Ending in exhaustion and an empty heart

Your soul is aching to be free…

We may not be free to fly like the birds

But we truly are free to choose what we wish for ourselves

And move towards that.

Even if it’s just one little thing

I dare you to change one part of your life that causes you dread

Isn’t it funny to think we keep things in our lives that cause us dread?

I guarantee we each have one that we could get rid of

When I started to try to embrace my true self, to be a happier me, one of the first things I chose to do was to admit I hated to talk on the phone…ahhhh thats one less thing to face in this world that was bringing me stress.

As Ferris Bueller once said

“Life moves pretty fast…if you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it”

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“In your eyes I felt so completely good about myself ~ the familiar glow of a kind and gentle friend. I knew I was ok. That life was really really good.”

We are all one. It’s so very true. To see each other that way we take away all judgement as you could very well experience what another experiences. Make the choices they have made. Find yourself in a similar circumstance. Felt the way they have felt.

You may remove judgement all physical appearance, behaviour or circumstance and any and all hopes, dreams and desires ~BUT~also see each other with the kind of eyes that I see my son and my daughter with. Full of unconditional love. Admiration and respect. I accept their choices. I am excited to see how their own hopes and dreams play out in this beautiful story of life. The “Choose Your Own Adventure” at its finest.

Different perspectives create unique ideas that shape the path ahead for us all! Each person has a purpose and we must start seeing the value in every individual path. Especially the ones you cannot understand or have deeply engrained negative assumptions about.

We can no longer stick to what was decided in the past. We must allow the future to be written without copying everything we have already read. Use new pens. New paper. Or forget about paper and pens and write it with sticks in the sand. Or type it up for the world to see. Or maybe not write it or type it at all. Maybe I will not read about it. I will feel it.

I want to be able to do this. Imagine that everyone I meet is a very special person to me. Not just “be nice to everyone”. But see people and silently appreciate them. Cheer for them. Be curious about their journey and excited for the way they are affecting the world. Encouragement by letting unconditional love flow from your heart to theirs. Nothing needs to be said. Nothing needs to be done. Just feel it.

People you cross paths with will say
“In your eyes I felt so completely good about myself ~ the familiar glow of a kind and gentle friend. I knew I was ok. That life was really really good.”

Imagine if we had only genuine loving thoughts about the people we surround ourselves with and those we pass by. The action that’s needed will be genuinely inspired and will be in harmony with the highest good of all.

The most treasured people in your lives whether here or transitioned hold the key to this wish. When you think about those special connections you have, let all those good happy thoughts flood your mind. Then, let it be shared. Share that genuine care with every person you meet. Start with you!! Every animal. Every tree. We can change the vibration, the feel of this world. It can’t hurt to try. 🙂

To put it another way. I wish that each and every one of us feels “seen” today. Seen for the very best parts of us. Which parts are those you wonder? It’s all of your parts..the entire recipe. All of it.
Your every little ingredient is needed, valued, loved and respected. All of our parts make us one. We are all one. I see you completely. And I know you are amazing. ⭐️

Ready For Change

The magic of you racing to uncover it, forced it to emerge into the sun

We were on a path,

Well worn,

Well marked,

Pretty enough,

Sufficient even,

Safe and predictable.

You left in a hurry,

With excitement and expectation.

I followed you,

Scared you may fall.

We raced together.

I tried to slow you down at first,

Battling thoughts in my head.

Do I stop you?

Do I put you back on the path of all known things

Where the familiar would comfort my fear,

Or do I run with you?

You just seemed to know that something wonderful beckoned,

the magic of you racing to uncover it, forced it to emerge into the sun

As though it could sense your arrival, all with perfect divine timing,

As you chose to listen to your inner being,

You were set free.

Free to explore.

Free to become the explorer you were born to be.

You would follow your heart,

And I would follow you.

What we found was what the universe wishes for us all,

To see life from a new perspective.

To find freedom.

To feel adventurous.

We were not bound to the rules

Of a place we didn’t fit in.

We embraced this journey,

Each step creating a new path in perfect harmony with our unique spirit.

We sat down together

And rocked back and forth,

Listening to the water flowing by.

The air around us was cold,

But we were warm and cozy like two kittens snuggled by a fire.

You were happy.

You were smiling.

You didn’t need to follow an old path through a familiar place.

You needed to be free to run and seek.

To lead us

To the beauty only you could find.

May I always be witness to the glorious life that unfolds around you,

As you create your own roads in this spectacular world.

It is ready for change.

Wake, Breathe, Seek Joy

Just be happy…

It’s what we’re meant to be.

And it will only BE

If you can truly BE YOU.

 

It’s exactly right to be exactly you.

This will make you happy.

It is not ok to feel knotted up inside trying to get along in society.

This will make you unhappy.

Every unique quality is like gold, to treasure and celebrate.

The value we each have,

The value we were born to share,

Is not meant to be hidden or altered.

We aren’t supposed to feel that differences mean things are harder, or will make life more of a struggle.

It would be harder if you were trying to fit into what someone else has decided is good, appropriate or necessary, to be of value and succeed.

You will struggle if  you feel you need to change in order to be worthy.

 

NO!

Don’t try to fit.

Just don’t.

You are not supposed to.

You came exactly the way you were meant to be.

Who says any passion or characteristic is more or less

It just isn’t so.

 

I am choosing to give my son a home where we trust in his true purpose

A purpose known by him and guided by him.

I choose to help him express himself in ways that bring him joy.

His very being, has brought joy to the world around him,

I see my most important job is to ensure his joy remains free flowing.

As it flows it washes away hurt, worry, stress and anger.

It always leaves a shine in the eyes of those who truly see him.

I won’t teach him “quiet hands” or shush his humm.

These are things that make him happy.

We are supposed to be happy right?

YES!

We will create a new way of life.

Where we are free to be, and live and communicate in OUR best way,

We will never conform to a tired old “normal”

It goes beyond awareness of conditions or disorders.

It goes far beyond a cute logo, coloured light and inclusion.

It is so much more than services and understanding or the lack of.

I don’t see any of those things….anymore.

You see,

I realized something because of what

I DO see.

I see him.  I see him enjoying his life.

I see him finding ways to make himself happy

I see him loving the heck out of things like trains and honeycombs.

I know he is full of pure, sweet, love.

The only time I see him upset

Is when we’re trying to make him “fit” into some ridiculous standard

Or when we push our needs ahead of his own.

It is true that as a family there will need to be compromise and it is likely there will be some annoyance along the way.

But I choose to be part of a family

That has unconditional support for each other,

Where we show big love,

Where we do the stuff that makes us laugh,

Where the cheerleading for our own, and each others

True inner joy

is so exuberant and so silly

It never fails

It just cannot.

 

I believe,

That good things can happen.

We know,

That accepting differences is the way toward change.

Where things we only dream of

Can be created in our reality

And show us all a new way.

Of course, I’m not just speaking to those of us with undeniable differences.

This is for anyone who wakes and breathes and seeks joy.

If you can take away one thought

From all of this,

Just be happy

It’s what we’re meant to be.

And it will only BE

If you can truly

BE YOU.

 

 

And so the garden grows

As long before as you can think
As far until as will exist

And as I began to grow,  so too did he
Right along next to me
Our energies building and shining
Growing and resting
Side by side

I was not showing him the way
He was neither leading nor following
He was an equal force
An equal light
An equal

Where I was going
He would be too
As he continued
So did I

As long before as you can think
As far until as will exist

We rose from the ground
Aiming toward the sun
Through shadows settling
Air cooling
Unwavering hope ripe with good intentions

Our intent is to love.

Give love
Find love
Receive love
Mention love
See love
Feel love

Until this world we are soaring through
Can do nothing
Without feeling it.
Nothing, without knowing it exists.
Until one day they find themselves snipping off a tiny bit to keep for their very own

And so the garden grows.

Cosmic Colour

Decorating all who stood in gloom

splashing through the pouring rain

on a particularly gray day

i couldnt help but notice

how the trees still wearing their

fancy fall colours

did not shy away

from the bold statememt

of their bright burning colour

They continued to light up the universe

in full cosmic colour

decorating all who stood in gloom

 

 

 

 

We Are The Sun🌞

You are the star, I am the wish,
We are the sun…

~~One night as I dreamed~~
You came back to me.
You took my hand.
Pulled me from the dark.
Wrapped me in the curtain
I had thought was our “divide”.
It wasn’t.
It was a magic cape,
Coloured with all of our memories,
Stitched through endless days of our shared laughter,
our shared sun,
You looked at me and whispered…
“You are the star, I am the wish,
We are the sun.”
“You are the light, I am the warmth,
We are the sun.”
“We have always been and will always be.”

We cannot be divided.
We are only united,
always forever..

To wish for a moment
with you,
I simply need to be.

There are pieces of me
Made from seconds,
and thoughts,
and creations,
Where we existed in one space
together,
visibly,
in the same dance of time.
What we cannot see,
Now lies within our
very existence.
And this dreamy magic cape
Shall remain with me,
Surrounding me in love,
Until that curtain rises
Once again

The Polaroid

As you turn to face your freedom…

In this moment

Take a picture

What does it show?

Your heart is beating,

But I cannot see it.

I see you smiling, or perhaps you are crying,

But is it a reflection,

Of your deepest thoughts and feelings?

Is it what you wish to portray, to “appear” ok

It matters .

I don’t care about the picture of this moment

It is only disguising the truth of your soul

I see the true you.

I love all you hold within.

Set it free.

And let another picture be taken,

As you turn to face your freedom..

 

The Embers

Love lives, as the fires sleep..

Within each of us

are the embers.

They ignite with love.

to light the way,

for our soul to journey

confidently.

There is the ember of wonder,

the ember of hope,

the ember of trust,

the ember of forgiveness,

the ember of gratitude,

the ember of creativity,

the ember of harmony~

Be open to receiving love.

It flutters in on the wings of

a butterfly,

It pours from the laughter of

children,

It circles you with a strangers

smile,

It finds you in a dream,

It catches you in unbelievable days,

and helps you believe~

Love creates light

Love dissolves fear,

Love lives as the fires sleep,

and will wake you…

again and again.

 

 

 

Still Within

And now, in full light, I see myself.

I’m digging my soul out from years of discarded pieces of myself.

I’m sweeping aside piles of stuff
That belonged to someone else’s journey.

The wreckage of choices
Made from someone else’s right or wrong, pressure or fear.

I’m lifting off this heavy, guilt-ridden costume.

It no longer fits.

there is something hiding within..

And now in full light I see myself.

My soul is bare and pristine.

Pulsing with a light of trust, and magic.

To be once again in my loving embrace.