The curtain came down,
Before I could speak.
I on one side,
You on the other.
I waited, stunned at the sudden finality.
This must be part of the show.
This heavy velvet
suffocating with silence,
Would rise and I’d be able to say the lines I had planned to say,
And those I hadn’t,
As they flooded my mind with so much urgency.
Time was still passing,
As I held my breath.
The clock that had never worked,
Began to …reminding me to breathe.
The curtain anchored itself in,
locked “for now”.
I stood there alone.
The crowd that had been watching, had left,
Eager to escape the stifling stench of despair.
I was sure you would find a way
to come back to me.
You were the “star”.
“This” couldn’t go on without you.
Nobody else knows the lines.
Nobody else knows how scared I am to speak mine.
Nobody else remembers OUR memories.
~~~I was completely alone~~~
You were on the other side
of something I didn’t understand.
How could I still hear your voice,
Feel your presence,
But not see you?
Our scene was over….or paused,
I didn’t know which.
I don’t know how long I stayed there ~at that curtain~…
Time became irrelevant.
The only thing that existed,
Were the delicate cracks in my desperate heart.
I knew I would have to step back into my own light,
And create a new role for me to play.
I didn’t want to.
I wanted this one.
I wanted it all back.
I wasn’t ready to become anything without you.
Me without you..
I hated it…
I cursed it..
I poured out my deepest, tar soaked depths,
And floated there as long as I could
One night as I dreamed,
You came back to me.
You took my hand,
Pulled me from the dark,
Wrapped me in the curtain
I had thought was our “divide”.
It was now a magic cape,
Coloured with all of our memories.
Stitched through endless days of our shared laughter,
our shared sun.
You looked at me and whispered
“You are the star, I am the wish,
We are the sun.”
“You are the light, I am the warmth,
We are the sun.”
We have always been, and will always be one.
You had given me the gift I needed to keep on.
We are not divided and never were.
We are only united,
To wish for a moment
I simply need to BE.
There are pieces of me,
Made from seconds,
Where we existed in one space
in the same wrinkle of time.
What we cannot see,
Now lies within our
And this dreamy magic cape,
Shall remain with me..
Surrounding me in love,
Until that curtain rises,